My first university trimester is officially over, all exams passed! That’s one down, 11 to go.
I’ve written and rewritten this post countless times, trying to capture a summary of my first few months at uni. It’s been so monumental and so anticlimactic at the same time. It hasn’t proven to be a tumultuous journey of self-discovery, and has, at times, felt rather lonely.
It’s put me into a bit of a crisis-mode over realising that the security blanket which was high school, is now well and truly gone for me. Driving past in the middle of the day really made me realise that school was continuing on without me, which was a bit of a selfish revelation.
Uni is a funny stage of life, where I’ve dipped my toes into adulthood, but I’m not quite willing to submerge myself entirely.
While trying to reflect on all of this, it’s easy to paint uni as a negative place, which isn’t true at all, for me. It’s a big adjustment, and you find yourself with a bit more responsibility than you’d possibly like, but it’s just as good as what you make it. If there’s one life lesson I can perfectly honestly share, it’s that what you put in is what you get out. So whatever you’re doing, if you want it to work, make it work. If you can’t make it work, that’s when you make a change, even if it’s only in perspective.
As trimester 2 is restarting, everything seems a lot better. I know how uni works now- I know what I have to do, and how I have to do it. I know now that long distance friendships are hard, but it’s well worth sending a message every few weeks, to stay with each other. However, I’ve also learned that those really close friends don’t really drift. Some friends have come home to visit, and catching up over dinner, every dynamic just clicked right back into place, and we all talked as though there had never been more than a minute’s distance between us.
I’ve never been a big fan of change, but it’s usually for the best. Becoming a uni student has been a long process, but it’s finally proving that again, this change has all been worthwhile.